I’m 14
Seriously when it comes to my old best friend I’m 14. No make it 16. So she’s at it again pretending to do drunk surveys on her myspace. I haven’t logged in forever and I log in to that crap. She of course puts on the survey names You Love My Drun Survey and stupid misspelled stuff. Ughh. Of course, because curiosity killed the kitty I had to look just to see how far she’s going.
Kevin booted her ass he was sick of it. She’s no longer a friend of his on myspace. Why? She’s a habitual liar who is showing off for her myspace friends the ones she’s met or not met in real life. She says she’s the life of the party and all this stuff. Gets the party started, never met a stranger. Uh, we’re talking about one of the most shy, quiet, and unfriendly people on the face of the earth. For years, people did not know she could talk.
Yeah, some of that could be that I’m a big talker and she was always with me, but whatever. Tonight I read one that said Have you ever put a lot of thought into killing yourself and she said No. Everyone say it with me…WHAT THE FUCK? This is a person who did this constantly. Oh wait, you probably never did really put much thought into it. What you put so much thought into was trying to get attention from everyone else by saying it.
And then I realize how pathetic I am. I see this question Have you ever liked your friends boyfriend or girlfriend? Now, honestly I was her only friend til she started getting online. Ok, she made a couple here and there but none that had any boyfriends to talk about. So I immediately thought of Kevin. I immediately realized yeah, she’d be lucky to have him after all the losers she’s been with in the past. A man who would treat her right! He’s mine I know this.
Then I start thinking about the time when she told me she had a crush on the guy that I was madly in love with or madly had a crush on when we were teenagers. I mean yeah it made me mad in a teenage way and all. Then I started to think about all the times that I’d say things about myself because of low self esteem or just being a moody teenager and she would agree with me!
So I just dredged up all that old angst and low self assurance of myself. I really feel like she wanted to keep me down because she didn’t want me to be with anyone so I’d be with her. Not in a sexual way, in a friend way and never leave her. Then she screwed the first one that came along. I remember thinking I was so ugly and stupid and just blah. Ok just ugly and I added in the rest because I’m in a mood now.
I remember distinctly talking about Anna Nicole Smith and it was like 1994 or 1995. She was on tv and I was like she’s chunky and she’s so pretty etc. I remember Melissa telling me that I was pretty like her or something along that nature. It’s nice to realize that some girls don’t want to put other girls down just to get ahead of them or keep them from getting something first.
Shouldn’t all of us ladies get along? I mean we all have things about us that are pretty and ugly and shouldn’t we tell each other nice things about them? And if my hair is nappy or I need to shave my legs then tell me, jokingly and get me out of my funk. BUT please do not keep me down because you are afraid I’ll get a boyfriend first and you’ll be sitting at home on Friday night.
Ladies tell your girlfriends they are pretty tomorrow. It’s Wednesday, it’s Hump Day so they might think you want to Hump them. Just direct them here and they will realize that there is a method to your madness.
May
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